i've always tried to pride myself upon being compassionate.. you cant hate someone and pray for them at the same time.. you have to learn to understand and care.. or else youre doing something wrong..

so much about compassion involves flipping conditions.. seeing the world from another's shoes.. what would lead me to those actions.. or conclusions.. or bring me to feel a certain way..

and when i think about how i should treat people.. i think ive always tried to reciprocate.. give back what they would give back.. and how awful is that? i should give everyone all the love that i'm capable of.. not to say that i should let them take advantage of me, and allow my concern for them to take over and become something dangerous for me.. but i shouldnt be the judge of what they deserve from me.. and i shouldnt expect anything.. to give with expectations of a return is selfish.. its like a bribe.. and its cheap..

or is there a limit to how much you should give? once they cross a certain line, is it natural to only give that christian love from afar? or do you allow yourself to re-engage in a relationship with them?

so heres a question for the population:

is there a such thing as a tough situation? can it be argued that people can never really mess up in a situation? people are intrinsically one way.. and so by reacting to something naturally, you're not really messing up.. you're just revealing a part of you that was always there.. so the situation can never screw you over.. its just that you never really knew those people..